Last night I was really missing my dad. I turned to the one person in my life that can completely understand the raw feelings that I have and that is my ex. He came through for me despite the fact that we have barely talked all week. I really don’t understand us sometimes. When we are together or talking I feel so close to him but then sometimes it’s like he just flips a switch and things are different. He knows just what to say to me to make me feel better about my dad. Last night I really cried harder than I have in a long time. I know sometimes it is necessary but I hate how weak it makes me feel. I’m really lucky that he talked to me. I have given him plenty of reasons not to be there for me but yet last night when I needed him he was there. I’m glad that he’s my friend but I wish things were different between us. I’m not sure if I will ever get over him but I’m know that I have to be patient and just see what happens in the future.