Thanksgiving is the time to sit back and look at all the things in our lives that we have to be thankful for. I have two amazing children that give me a sense a pride on a daily basis. They are smart, sensitive and loving. They are both teenagers so they aren’t perfect but they are really great kids. I’m lucky enough to have an amazing mom who is one of my best friends. I have a job that truly gives me a sense of making a difference in this crazy world we live in. I have a nice home for my little family and I have my health.
Of course there are plenty of things I would love to have in my life but i have come to realize that things aren’t what make you happy in the long run. Home was always a place for me when I was growing up because I lived in the same house my whole life. It wasn’t until after my first divorce that I truly realized what home really should be. Home to me now is where ever I live with my two children. I worry about my mom living alone but i know that she is ok right now.
I received an email last night from my first love. He remembered my birthday after all these years. I guess you could say that hearing from him restored my faith in humanity just a little bit. I can’t wait to see him at my graduation in a few weeks. My mom asked me this morning if I was going to invite my ex to my graduation. You see we are not even what I would call friends at the moment so it is kind of a weird situation. I’m not sure that I would even have applied for grad school if it hadn’t been for his encouragement when we were dating, but that was two years ago and I’m not sure that is still a reason to include him. I’m not even sure he cares about my graduation. I know that he was instrumental in getting me into grad school I’m just not sure how much credit I should give him at this point. It is definitely time to move forward in my life and stop focusing on the past. Life is short and I deserve to be happy.