So this weekend I finally got a true reflection of myself in the eyes of someone who has know me most of my life.  He reminded how out of character so many of my choices have been in the last couple of years.  He also helped me see why the situation with the ex was driving me so crazy. Now I have a whole new perspective on so many things. I realize how important it is to remain true to myself regardless of what it going on around me.

On another note, my ex and I have managed to work through a lot of stuff.  Now instead of feeling like he’s my distant acquaintance, I actually feel like he’s my friend.   It honestly couldn’t have come at a better time because the next few months is going to be really hard for me.  My ex understands how my dad’s death has impacted me and it is nice to know that he will be there when I need to talk to him about it.  He is one of the few people that really understands how i feel because he lost his dad too.