Ok so about a month ago I decided to try online dating again.  I wouldn’t say that I have had so much luck with it in the past but I thought it would be a great way to move on from my past.  So I have chatted with a few people through email over the last month but I honestly haven’t met anyone that really sparked my interest.  Some of the guys live too far away and some just seem to be really different than I am.  I want to be with someone that shares my faith but recognizes the weaknesses of being human.  I may have finally found someone that fits that requirement.  I haven’t met him but through our conversations I have found that we share some common opinions and ideas about the things that are important.  So now what do I do?  Do I take a chance? Do I actually meet someone that I’ve been talking to online?  It is so hard to know what I should do.  It is so funny because my daughter is so sure that I will get married again.  I don’t know how to feel about marriage anymore.  I’ve come to realize that life isn’t so bad by myself.  I’ve spent the last few months trying to venture out and spend time with new people.  My ex has still been a factor but not the way he was before.  It is the end of the year and it seems like I have spent most of 2015 making mistakes.  I am selling my property on the last day of the year and I would love to spend 2016 being a bit smarter when it comes to relationships.  My first love told me the other day that I was a wonderful woman and mother but that I had horrible taste in men and healthy relationships.  I would really like to change that.  I would love to have a healthy relationship with someone that deserves me.  I refuse to settle for something less than what I deserve.  This guy may not be it but I know now that I need to wait until I find that person.  I need to believe that God has a plan for me that doesn’t include being hurt by my past everyday.

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