I told myself that I didn’t want to have any regrets when it comes to my ex but now I’m wondering if it was such a good idea to ask him out. I’m starting to think I made a hasty decision that is going to backfire on me. I really want to go out with him but I’m not exactly sure whether or not he wants to go out with me. He didn’t say no but he also didn’t seem that into the idea. I am tempted to tell him that I have changed my mind but I have mixed feelings about it. The ex is a good guy but he’s all over the place when it comes to relationships.
I can honestly say that I miss the paramedic. I didn’t even talk to him for a month but i really enjoyed talking to him and spending time with him. He was so respectful and so sweet to me all the time. I just can’t reconcile in my mind how he went from that man to a man that sends a text message to end things without any type of explanation. I feel like I must have done something but I can’t possibly figure out what it could have been. i guess it is one of life’s little mysteries that will never be solved. I know in my heart that if he did that now than I really don’t need someone like that in my life. I need someone who will actually communicate with me and talk about things when they are bothering them.
I guess I’m just starting to wonder if I will ever meet the right man for me!!!!