First Love

My first love has been in my life off and on since I was 14. He has played various roles in my life depending on the circumstances but his most consistent role is that of friend. He’s not my best friend because we don’t see each other all the time but he’s what I would call a lifelong friend. We can go forever without seeing each other and pick up right where we left off before. He’s been giving me a lot of advice lately in regards to my love life. I think it bothers him that I’m not in a relationship that’s happy and healthy. He wants me to let go of my ex and leave myself the chance to meet someone new. The crazy thing about the whole situation is that I have tried that so many times without success. I can see the writing on the wall and I know my ex and I aren’t ever going to get back together but its still hard to let go! When school starts this year I will be at a new school and for the first time in four years my ex and I won’t be working together. I know God has a plan for me and I have to trust that he will take care of me and bring the right people into my life. The beauty of being at a new school means that I have the potential to make some new friends. I go home in ten days and I need to make some changes in my life. I have to stop hanging on to the past and look forward to the future. I made a bucket list for myself last night and I intend to work on completing it while making myself the best version of me! Life is short and I’m done making excuses for the people who continually hurt me in my life. It is time to find a new path because the old one is worn thin. 

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