So I finally talked to my ex last night about last weekend. He feels like we should move forward as just friends. There is a part of this that breaks my heart but at the same time I know it it probably for the best. I have to move on in order to be happy again and I won’t be able to do that if I keep spending time with my ex. The sad truth is that we won’t actually be friends because we don’t know how to do that. We will probably go back to ignoring each other and pretending like we didn’t ever care about each other. I know that will break my heart but I also know that I need to take care of myself. I guess the part that kills me the most is that I really do think he was the right man for me but we just didn’t connect at the right time. I hope that we both find happiness in the future. I have made a lot of choices that will impact my future lately and I hope that the positive nature of my experiences in 2016 will continue. I am lucky in so many ways and even though my ex and I will never be together again I will be happy on my own. It has taken me a long time to be ok with myself and I know that God has a plan for me so I will hold out for his choice.