So Saturday night my boyfriend and I were having drinks in a bar after a very filling Italian dinner. We got into this interesting conversation about sex! I was trying to understand some of his insistence about us and I asked him a direct question about why he feels so good about us. He finally told me that he thinks I’m a freak like him. I’m learning more and more about his wants and desires both in and out of the bedroom. I know that he makes me feel things that I’ve never felt before. He pushes me past boundaries I’ve never really crossed. I feel so completely comfortable with him. I feel completely uninhibited when I’m with him. Last night after we got home from the movies we were lying in bed kissing and talking. He started describing for me what it would feel like to be with two men while he was kissing me. The thing that makes him so completely amazing is that he is so focused on my pleasure. Sex is never about a quickie and then getting on with our day. There is usually a lot of foreplay followed by utterly amazing sex. I can honestly say that I’m having some of the best sex of my life with this man. He keeps telling me that the only way things will end between us is if I walk away. That’s a hard concept for me after everything I’ve been through in the last few years. I can honestly say that it would make me happy to spend the rest of my life with this man. Only time will tell how thing will end up but right now I’m just going to enjoy the ride!