It’s funny because I honestly would have thought that I would be more upset after five months. I guess maybe I am still a bit numb. I knew things between us weren’t perfect and I knew we had a lot of obstacles to overcome but I guess I expected us to be stronger. I know that I will bounce back and I also know that my life isn’t over but I do miss him. It is hard to be away from someone that you are used to seeing on a regular basis and talking to every day. I am lucky though because I have my kids.  School is almost out for me and I will be able to focus on my kids and myself over the next couple of months.  Life is short and I refuse to wallow in sorrow but I am a bit sad. I haven’t taken off the necklace he gave me yet because I am just not ready but I know that I will soon.