My Struggle

I am a fairly confident person and I have been able to accomplish so many things in my life. I work hard and I am really determined to succeed in my life. My biggest struggle has always revolved around relationships. I always get involved with the wrong men. I am independent and many men find that to be intimidating. I really just want to meet someone that I can share my life with. I don’t need to be taken care of but I do want  companionship. I am constantly worried about what is going to happen when my kids are both in college. I am not looking forward to being left alone. I have really enjoyed raising my children but in the last few years I have come to realize that I will be alone once my kids are gone. I am okay by myself but that doesn’t change the fact that I want love and romance in my life. I want to know that there is someone there that I can count on and vice versa. I haven’t ever really thought that not having a husband was a big deal but as I reach the end of my child rearing I realize that I don’t have that support that a husband would give through this next stage of my life. I don’t regret either of my divorces because I don’t think either of those relationships were right for me. I do wish that I had that special person in my life. I will eventually deal with my struggle but right now I’m trying not to wallow in it.

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