Tomorrow I go back to work after having a week off from school. It is crazy how quickly the time has gone by and how many things have changed for me this week. I actually started dating again this week. I finally told me ex today that I was dating but that my heart still belonged to him. His first question was whether I was dating anyone exclusively which I’m not. I went out with two separate guys over the last few days. They are both younger than me and although I like them both well enough, they really don’t measure up to my ex. I know it’s not a competition and I know it is not fair to compare other people to my ex. We had a very emotional conversation today which left me in tears. He told me today that if he felt like he could commit and give me the time I deserve that he would. He also told me he still loved me. I just really don’t understand why we can’t be together. I want him and no one else. I know that I have to keep moving forward and that I can’t just hold on to him but it is so hard to do that. I still love him so much!!