Three words that when spoken can have so many different meanings. It can mean please don’t leave me. It can mean that I need you. I love you has so many underlying themes and connotations associated with the words. I know in my heart that I love this man!!
I have known him for almost a year and a half. We were in an actual relationship for only around five months but we have been a regular part of each other’s life for a year and a half. I still love him desperately but I rarely tell him because we are no longer in that kind of situation where it seems right. We have had some amazing conversations in the last few weeks and he even admitted to me that when we are together we are making love. Last night, we were making love and in the middle of it all I told him I loved him. He didn’t respond which is fine but it always makes me wish I had kept it to myself. My kids think he loves me and so does my best friend but he never expresses it to me verbally. The way that he touches me and communicates with me shows me that he cares but I’m honestly not sure if he still loves me.
We made this picture last night. We still have so much fun together and we still get along so well. One day I may walk away from this man and move on with my life but for now it’s just not possible. I have tried to walk away so many times but we are honestly not done with each other. So as of now all I can say is that I love him.