Being Alone

One of the worst things about divorce is having to share your children. My weekends where the kids leave me are always so quiet. This week has been so crazy because I have had teenagers invading my house pretty much everyday. My son’s friends have been making our house a second home. I love knowing where my kids are and who they are with. I’m glad my house is where they want to hang out. Although tonight as I’m sitting alone I realize how much my life is going to change in a few more years. I only have three more years until both of my kids have graduated from high school. I honestly don’t know what I’m going to do with myself once my kids have graduated. I will still have my teaching but as a single woman it’s kind of scary to think about living alone. My kids have been such a big part of my life for so long that I can’t imagine life without them. I’m an independent person and I like being on my own but the idea of spending the rest of my life alone is scary. I don’t usually let myself wallow in self pity but for some reason tonight I feel especially lonely. Oh well tomorrow is a new day!!

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