Distance

I have heard it said so many times that sometimes you just have to cut off contact to let someone go. Over a year ago the man I love just stopped talking to me one day. He didn’t explain and he didn’t even respond to my attempts to talk to him. I reached out several times over the course of about six weeks without a response. One day about a year ago I reached out with something different to tell him. I had to tell him about my mom’s boyfriend passing away. After so many attempts to reach out I never expected a response but he responded right away. After that day we started communicating again and we ultimately started seeing each other again. That renewed communication has brought me to today. We haven’t always stayed super close in the last year and we have definitely had our ups and downs but we have been a fairly consistent presence in each other’s lives. Now I haven’t talked to him in over a week. I have no idea why he chose now to cut off communication again but apparently I guess he decided it was time. I could contact him but after what happened last year I’m just not going to do that to myself. I still love him and I think a part of me always will but at the same time I feel myself letting him go. I know that I could never jump into anything with anyone new but that’s okay because I know I’m not ready for that. I may eventually hear from him again and I may not but I know now that I will be okay either way. The next few weeks are going to be crazy for me as I finish my rhetoric class and start my new job. I have let him go! I suppose he can come back if he wants too.

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