Difficult Conversations

So I noticed this morning that my horoscope suggested that if I had something to say that I feared would get a negative reaction I shouldn’t be worried to express myself. I wasn’t planning on broaching anything with my ex today but somehow through our morning conversation I realized that I needed to tell him. He always wants to know about my sexual encounters that don’t involve him. It bothered me at first when he used to ask but it has become part of our situation. I told him this morning that I would give it all up for him. I also told him that I wasn’t trying to change our situation but that I wanted him to be part of my life in whatever way he felt comfortable with. I think our conversation actually made things better between us. I do know that I think I am going to take a break from other men for now. I need to focus on work and school.  I need to be there for my kids. I also need my ex to see how much I really love him. I know that he would never ask me to stop seeing other people but at the same time I know that it is the right thing for me right now. I need to focus on me. If I get closer to my ex than that is fine but even if I don’t I need to focus on what I really want. My life is going to change a lot in the next three years and I need to decided how I am going to deal with those changes.

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